Dear mommy ,
Every corner I turn has another memory of you
Another person that tries to hold me when missing you gets out of hand
Yet another reminder of how empty I’ve been since you.......since you
I miss your voice and I’d give anything to hear you again
I don’t know if you’re resting peacefully
Or if you share with me
The nights when I can’t get my eyes to close .
It hasn’t even been ten years but it feels longer than a century
I keep expecting you to peekaboo right back into my life but deep down I know you’re going to stay gone and that tears me apart
Remembering a past with you in it feels unreal
I wonder if you are watching over me
If you see how I shrink everytime I get my mind to remember you’re gone
The girl I used to be
She left no trace of who I have become
She left no inklings of next,no footprints in the sand.
She didn’t tell me of my desire to drown in an ocean that knows of no tomorrows
She didn’t tell me how badly I would always need someone to hold me when there was no one.
The girl you used to know
Would never have watched me trip and not help me get up but lately I don’t know that there’s anything worth saving
Because the girl you knew me to be
She dies everytime she has to say
“You’re never coming back”
But why could she not find you
If death is a location you both shared?